The morbid thoughts of an occasional drinker...

It's quite odd the feelings and emotions you go through when you are drinking. It brings about a person in which you truly not are. The being within you, the non being. The someone you aspire or don't aspire to be. I don't drink that often or maybe I do. In the eyes of my parents I may drink too often. Sometimes, I can drink too much. I don't see it as a problem. I think it's normal, it's a part of my social life. I enjoy drinking a beer and having intellectual conversations. When the drops of alcohols trickle down my throat the thoughts of news, films, politics, music and podcasts come to fruition. In a way, drinking brings out a side of you that may be unfamiliar. A side in which, you can truly be yourself. I'm quite shy but if I've had a few beers try keeping me quiet. It varies though, alcohol is a weird drug. A dangerous drug that can easily be life threatening. It's odd how strongly it's encouraged to drink. Drinking can lead to alcoholism and even your own death. That's something you don't often hear when you are at a restaurant or a bar. I recently visited a liquor store to purchase a four pack of craft beer and it had been two years since I set foot into a liquor store. I thought about the guy standing in line behind me. Does he come here often? Is he attending a party this evening, or is he drinking alone? A thought that left my mind to wonder. It's so normal and okay to drink. You're an American, dammit. You are free to do what you want. Haha, I hope you can sense my sarcasm. I was listening to Marc Maron's podcast with Robin Williams last night and it was probably the saddest interview I've ever heard. The true struggle of an unhappy man speaking about alcohol and cocaine as if it was okay. They even talked about suicide. It deeply saddened me. Such a successful and inspiring actor dealing with alcoholism and drug addiction. It made me wonder if you can ever truly be happy and satisfied with life... 

Deb 

It's March Already?!

Hi readers,

Before I start off this blog post I want to say... Thank You! I'm over 3,000 views now! How awesome is that? I know I don't update as often as I should but I am so thankful for you all reading my post. It means a lot to me that someone is actually taking time out of their day to read a blog post I wrote. You all are awesome, thanks again!

Now, let's recap…as you all know I celebrated Valentine's Day on February 13th with my boyfriend and it was a great day. I bought a cute dress from Target, curled my hair and got the perfect valentine's gift for my love. We spent the entire day together. We had lunch at Cheddar's which meant yummy food and good mixed drinks. After that, we exchanged gifts (Eddie knows me too well), napped and just hung out the rest of the day. I think the most important part of Valentine's Day is just being with the person you love and letting them know how much they mean to you. 

[Ugh, for some reason all these photos are blurry. I'm sorry. :(]

I also recently celebrated my 23rd Birthday. Yes, I am getting old! Eddie got me a GoPro and I love it. I've been wanting an action cam for awhile now. I can't wait to share all my videos with you all. It was a fun birthday and I felt lots of love from my family, friends and boyfriend. I spent my actual birthday with Eddie at South Padre Island. We planned a trip to the beach and book a hotel room at The Pearl -South Padre. The hotel was nice, cheap and even had a balcony with a beautiful view of the ocean. We started off the day at the Padre Island Brewery with burgers and beers. Unfortunately, I was sick so I was only able to drink one beer. I still managed to have fun even though I couldn't breathe, had chills and a fever. After lunch, we hung out in the room. Watched the waves from the balcony and had dinner at Blackbeard's. It was the perfect day...minus being sick. 

On Saturday, we drove back from the beach and relaxed a bit before we went out with friends in the evening. It was recently my best friend Sarah's birthday also so we all got together with our friend B'yanka and her boyfriend Gabe to drink, eat and celebrate turning twenty-three. First, we went to happy hour at 'The Quarter' and then we went to our usual spot 'Roosevelt's at 7.' The evening was filled with laughs and good conversations. I really missed hanging out with my friends. It's funny how we all are so busy with our own lives but when we get together it's like we've never been apart. That's how you know you're true friends...and I'm very thankful for having them in my life. 

Then, on Sunday I spent the day in bed. I was still sick and exhausted from such an eventful weekend. I got a lot of rest and then went shopping at a local boutique 'Shop 112' where Sarah works and then I stopped at 'Barnes & Noble' to look at Wes Anderson books that I want but don't have the money for. :'( (They are like $40 each). I will eventually buy them, Wes is one of my favorite film directors and I just find him fascinating.

This week has been a little slow. I've just been going to school and doing homework and whatnot. But, guess what?! On Monday, I purchased a flight to New York City! I will be going with Eddie on May 27 - June 2 and we will be staying in Brooklyn. Not many of you may know this but I am in love with Brooklyn. My favorite beer and coffee is from Brooklyn and I've only briefly visited a few years ago. I'm excited to finally stay for a week. I feel like Brooklyn is a place where I can see myself living for a few years. (Fingers crossed) So far, I made reservations at 'The Comedy Cellar' which is an iconic stand-up comedy room where famous comics have performed such as Louis C.K., Todd Barry, Ray Romano, Dave Chappelle, Chris Rock, etc. Just to be in a room where all those famous comics once stood on stage is going to be an amazing experience for me. I've loved and admired comedians for years and I can't wait to see stand-up at the famous comedy room in New York City. I also got tickets for the new Comedy Central show 'The Nightly Show' hosted by the extremely funny and witty, Larry Wilmore. Right now, I am still working on getting some tickets to 'The Daily Show' hosted by Jon Steward but since he recently announced that he is leaving every show has been sold out weeks in advance. (Wish me luck on scoring those free tickets!) I seriously can't wait for this trip. We will also plan to celebrate Eddie's 24th birthday at Brooklyn Brewery. We might plan a day trip via Bolt Bus to D.C., Philly, or Boston. Plus, of course visiting all of the museum and hopefully catching an Off-Broadway play I'm looking forward too, 'Fun Home' based on a graphic memoir I read a couple of years ago by Alison Bechdel. My best friend Alyssa that lives in Philly also plans on joining us in the city. We have so many plans already and it's barely March. Now, I just have to patiently wait eighty-three days. :( It sounds like a lot but these months have been flying by. 

Tomorrow, I have my first story to cover for 'The Pan American' over Student Film Projects at UTPA. I am excited to cover a story that I am interested in, I love film (It would have been my minor but since I want to graduate ASAP, I stuck with boring Anthropology). I'm a little nervous because I have to interview people I’ve never met and I tend to be shy but as a reporter you are forced to step out of your shell. It's also a little nerve-wrecking because the event ends at 8:00 p.m. and my editor wants the story e-mailed and ready for editing by midnight. Wish me luck guys! 

Thank you all for reading! I appreciate it.
Lastly, I'll leave you with a short video I made from my Birthday Weekend with my new GoPro. I hope you enjoy it! :p

Love,

Deb