The morbid thoughts of an occasional drinker...

It's quite odd the feelings and emotions you go through when you are drinking. It brings about a person in which you truly not are. The being within you, the non being. The someone you aspire or don't aspire to be. I don't drink that often or maybe I do. In the eyes of my parents I may drink too often. Sometimes, I can drink too much. I don't see it as a problem. I think it's normal, it's a part of my social life. I enjoy drinking a beer and having intellectual conversations. When the drops of alcohols trickle down my throat the thoughts of news, films, politics, music and podcasts come to fruition. In a way, drinking brings out a side of you that may be unfamiliar. A side in which, you can truly be yourself. I'm quite shy but if I've had a few beers try keeping me quiet. It varies though, alcohol is a weird drug. A dangerous drug that can easily be life threatening. It's odd how strongly it's encouraged to drink. Drinking can lead to alcoholism and even your own death. That's something you don't often hear when you are at a restaurant or a bar. I recently visited a liquor store to purchase a four pack of craft beer and it had been two years since I set foot into a liquor store. I thought about the guy standing in line behind me. Does he come here often? Is he attending a party this evening, or is he drinking alone? A thought that left my mind to wonder. It's so normal and okay to drink. You're an American, dammit. You are free to do what you want. Haha, I hope you can sense my sarcasm. I was listening to Marc Maron's podcast with Robin Williams last night and it was probably the saddest interview I've ever heard. The true struggle of an unhappy man speaking about alcohol and cocaine as if it was okay. They even talked about suicide. It deeply saddened me. Such a successful and inspiring actor dealing with alcoholism and drug addiction. It made me wonder if you can ever truly be happy and satisfied with life... 

Deb 

It's March Already?!

Hi readers,

Before I start off this blog post I want to say... Thank You! I'm over 3,000 views now! How awesome is that? I know I don't update as often as I should but I am so thankful for you all reading my post. It means a lot to me that someone is actually taking time out of their day to read a blog post I wrote. You all are awesome, thanks again!

Now, let's recap…as you all know I celebrated Valentine's Day on February 13th with my boyfriend and it was a great day. I bought a cute dress from Target, curled my hair and got the perfect valentine's gift for my love. We spent the entire day together. We had lunch at Cheddar's which meant yummy food and good mixed drinks. After that, we exchanged gifts (Eddie knows me too well), napped and just hung out the rest of the day. I think the most important part of Valentine's Day is just being with the person you love and letting them know how much they mean to you. 

[Ugh, for some reason all these photos are blurry. I'm sorry. :(]

I also recently celebrated my 23rd Birthday. Yes, I am getting old! Eddie got me a GoPro and I love it. I've been wanting an action cam for awhile now. I can't wait to share all my videos with you all. It was a fun birthday and I felt lots of love from my family, friends and boyfriend. I spent my actual birthday with Eddie at South Padre Island. We planned a trip to the beach and book a hotel room at The Pearl -South Padre. The hotel was nice, cheap and even had a balcony with a beautiful view of the ocean. We started off the day at the Padre Island Brewery with burgers and beers. Unfortunately, I was sick so I was only able to drink one beer. I still managed to have fun even though I couldn't breathe, had chills and a fever. After lunch, we hung out in the room. Watched the waves from the balcony and had dinner at Blackbeard's. It was the perfect day...minus being sick. 

On Saturday, we drove back from the beach and relaxed a bit before we went out with friends in the evening. It was recently my best friend Sarah's birthday also so we all got together with our friend B'yanka and her boyfriend Gabe to drink, eat and celebrate turning twenty-three. First, we went to happy hour at 'The Quarter' and then we went to our usual spot 'Roosevelt's at 7.' The evening was filled with laughs and good conversations. I really missed hanging out with my friends. It's funny how we all are so busy with our own lives but when we get together it's like we've never been apart. That's how you know you're true friends...and I'm very thankful for having them in my life. 

Then, on Sunday I spent the day in bed. I was still sick and exhausted from such an eventful weekend. I got a lot of rest and then went shopping at a local boutique 'Shop 112' where Sarah works and then I stopped at 'Barnes & Noble' to look at Wes Anderson books that I want but don't have the money for. :'( (They are like $40 each). I will eventually buy them, Wes is one of my favorite film directors and I just find him fascinating.

This week has been a little slow. I've just been going to school and doing homework and whatnot. But, guess what?! On Monday, I purchased a flight to New York City! I will be going with Eddie on May 27 - June 2 and we will be staying in Brooklyn. Not many of you may know this but I am in love with Brooklyn. My favorite beer and coffee is from Brooklyn and I've only briefly visited a few years ago. I'm excited to finally stay for a week. I feel like Brooklyn is a place where I can see myself living for a few years. (Fingers crossed) So far, I made reservations at 'The Comedy Cellar' which is an iconic stand-up comedy room where famous comics have performed such as Louis C.K., Todd Barry, Ray Romano, Dave Chappelle, Chris Rock, etc. Just to be in a room where all those famous comics once stood on stage is going to be an amazing experience for me. I've loved and admired comedians for years and I can't wait to see stand-up at the famous comedy room in New York City. I also got tickets for the new Comedy Central show 'The Nightly Show' hosted by the extremely funny and witty, Larry Wilmore. Right now, I am still working on getting some tickets to 'The Daily Show' hosted by Jon Steward but since he recently announced that he is leaving every show has been sold out weeks in advance. (Wish me luck on scoring those free tickets!) I seriously can't wait for this trip. We will also plan to celebrate Eddie's 24th birthday at Brooklyn Brewery. We might plan a day trip via Bolt Bus to D.C., Philly, or Boston. Plus, of course visiting all of the museum and hopefully catching an Off-Broadway play I'm looking forward too, 'Fun Home' based on a graphic memoir I read a couple of years ago by Alison Bechdel. My best friend Alyssa that lives in Philly also plans on joining us in the city. We have so many plans already and it's barely March. Now, I just have to patiently wait eighty-three days. :( It sounds like a lot but these months have been flying by. 

Tomorrow, I have my first story to cover for 'The Pan American' over Student Film Projects at UTPA. I am excited to cover a story that I am interested in, I love film (It would have been my minor but since I want to graduate ASAP, I stuck with boring Anthropology). I'm a little nervous because I have to interview people I’ve never met and I tend to be shy but as a reporter you are forced to step out of your shell. It's also a little nerve-wrecking because the event ends at 8:00 p.m. and my editor wants the story e-mailed and ready for editing by midnight. Wish me luck guys! 

Thank you all for reading! I appreciate it.
Lastly, I'll leave you with a short video I made from my Birthday Weekend with my new GoPro. I hope you enjoy it! :p

Love,

Deb

Busy Bee...

Hi readers! Guess what? I'm going to put my writing skills to some use finally. I'm officially a new writer for my university newspaper, The Pan American. They were glad to accept me and I start reporter training soon. I've never done reporting before and I am ecstatic and ready to learn. This opportunity gives me the chance to dabble into reporting and write, of course. Also, I'll eventually start getting paid to write for school. How cool is that?! Now that I am almost twenty-three it's important for me to start learning new skills, volunteer and begin internships. I'm happy to say that I'll be doing all of them and I'll be extremely busy. I know it will be worth it to gain experience and to hopefully land a job as soon as I graduate. I still plan on attending graduate school but for that I am going to need money which means getting a higher paying job after graduating is much needed. I'm finally putting myself out there. I feel like I'm breaking out of my shell and doing things I'm not normally comfortable doing (aka talking to people, lol). My ultimate goal in my future career is to keep on writing and hopefully write for a magazine or newspaper. I know I can't do that where I currently live. I'm ready to venture out in the world and find my place. I can't wait to graduate. Here's to good things happening. (raises plastic cup filled with nothing) I hope you all are doing lovely! 

Love

Deb

Hello!

Hi all!

I hope you've been lovely. I miss writing in my blog, I always say it. I've just been trying to stay away from social media and sharing too much but then I figured it's not like I have many readers. I shouldn't care and I should just write what I feel whenever I want. So, I'm going to do that. 

In December, I went to Denver, Colorado with Eddie. We had a great time. I did get altitude sickness which made me nauseated and sleepy my entire vacation. I still managed to enjoy myself because the city was pretty spectacular. We had great food, enjoyed museums (my favorite was the art museum), watched a film, visited book stores and record stores, went on a microbrew tour (super fun) and had another good airbnb experience. 

After we returned back to Edinburg, it was time for the holidays. The holidays are less exciting the older you get. No one puts up lights anymore and everyone has fake trees. I still had fun with my family and I love buying gifts for my family, friends and boyfriend. 

Then, In January I started my spring semester of school at UTPA. I am finally on track to graduate in December 2015. I'm super excited about that but also nervous about applying to graduate school. I know that I can't stay in Edinburg for my masters. I don't think I could handle it (I've been here long enough), I'm also getting too old to live at home. I also have to start studying for my GRE and I'm unsure about how many months I should study and when to take it. Oh well, I'll figure it out. This semester I'm taking eighteen hours and I have four upper level English courses, Spanish and Formal Logic. I'm managing my time well, I have reading and homework pretty much every day so it's hard to find time outside of school. I'm tired all the time now.  

Besides that, everything is going well. I can't believe it is already February. Valentine's Day is coming up and Eddie and I are planning on going out to eat the day before during the afternoon. I can't stand crowds and waiting so going out on the day before sounds like a much better plan. February is also my birthday month. I'm not that excited to turn twenty-three. I feel so old, I guess I look young so that's a good thing.

Lately, I've been enjoying Parks and Recreation. The show is back for its seventh and final season. I already cried in the past few episodes that aired I don't think I can handle the finale. I'm sure I'll be crying the entire last episode, lol. I've also gotten into Marc Maron's podcast 'WTF' and I also listened to 'Serial' from This American Life. If you like hearing from your comedians and celebrities and how they started their career then listen to WTF. If you like hearing about serial killers and want to feel involved in a case then listen to Serial. They are both really interesting. Anyways, I'm rambling now here is a few of my favorites I can't get enough of lately. 

Thanks for reading!

Love, Deb. 

Happy Holidays!

I hope you all had an enjoyable Thanksgiving last week. I spent it surrounded by family and yummy food. I can't believe Christmas is just in a few weeks. Right now, I am bombarded with finals and projects but I'm done on Tuesday and then I'll be in Denver with Eddie for six days. I've been in need of a vacation and it is probably going to snow. I'm so excited! Then once I return I need to start Christmas shopping, studying for my PTC exam and spending time with friends and family. The holidays are a time to reflect and realize all you have to be thankful for, the following is what I'm thankful for. 

This year I am thankful for:

• My family, no matter what I always their support. They truly want to see me success in life and will do anything for me.
• My dog, he can be needy and slobbery but he is still my favorite furry best friend in the entire world. 
• My boyfriend, our relationship grows stronger day by day. He is willing to do anything for me and has proven to be the best boyfriend each and every day. 
• My friends, I don't have many of them but the ones the select few that I do have all have a special place in my heart. I know that I don't hang out with them enough but they mean a lot to me and I hope the holidays bring us all closer again.
• My home, my bed, my car. I am lucky and fortunate to have a roof over my head, my own bed and my own car. Not many people have the same luxuries as I do and I'm truly thankful for this.
• Books, I've been buried in books this year. I have a new found love for reading and it has helped me develop my vocabulary and I've gained so much knowledge.
• I'm also thankful for having the opportunity to travel. I've been to Seattle twice, Las Vegas, Portland and I'm constantly going to Austin. It has given me the opportunity to be open minded, not be so shy and immerse myself in a city that I've never been to. 

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season. Be thankful and kind. Don't ever take anything for granted. Be safe out there my lovely readers.

Lastly, I'll leave you with my favorite song/album/artist this year. Enjoy!

Chris Cohen - Heart Beat

Thanks for reading

deb

It's (almost) time to wind down...

I've been incredibly happy thanks to my wonderful boyfriend. A few weeks ago we had the greatest time together in Austin at Fun Fun Fun Fest. We saw Alt-J, Run The Jewels, 2 Chainz, Modest Mouse, Courtney Barnett, Big K.R.I.T, The Blood Brothers, Fred Armisen, Kumail Nanjiani and Thomas Middleditch. It was a blast, we spent the entire weekend together enjoying music and comedy. We also got to watch 'Birdman' at the Alamo Drafthouse and it's probably my favorite film of the year. I wish I could have taken more pictures but my phone camera broke, I finally have a replacement though. I think it's important for couples to travel, especially if you don't get to spend much time together. Eddie and I take every chance we get to travel, it's an opportunity to escape and enjoy each others company in a great city. We've been thinking about moving to Austin since we've both live in the city before but who knows.. I guess it's just where I get accepted to Graduate school when I start applying after the summer. It's crazy that I'm finally seeing my life moving forward. It's scary and exciting all at the same time. This semester is quickly coming to an end and I couldn't be anymore ecstatic for the winter break. I'm going to Denver, Colorado with Eddie for six days. I get to see museums (my favorite), hopefully snow, botanic gardens, The Nutcracker ballet and that beautiful Denver skyline. I am literally counting down the days, the day after my last final I am taking off to Austin and flying to Denver for my winter vacation. I hope you all have fun winter holiday plans. I can't wait to relax and unwind with family and friends during the holidays, it's always such a great time. I also plan on doing a ton of reading! I've managed to not only read my textbooks but finish two books this month, hopefully I'll make it three. If you are lost and in your twenties I suggest reading Amy Poehler's memoir 'Yes Please' she's down to earth and completely honest. I know she is my comedic idol and role model but I think it's a book that can really help anyone having a tough time trying to figure out who they. Trust me, you won't regret reading it. Lastly, I'm going to leave you with my current favorite artist. She is a wonderful gal all the way from Australia and her name is Courtney Barnett. She kicks ass, she plays guitar and she's absolutely adorable. I discovered her earlier this summer and had to catch her set at FFFnites and she's phenomenal live. I hope you enjoy!

Courtney Barnett - Anonymous Club

Thanks for reading!

love

deb

Sometimes I disappear..

I have abandoned my blog and I started writing in a journal. I feel like I can express myself through writing in a journal and no one can read it or judge me. I can literally write down anything I want. I do miss writing on my blog though. I've been pretty great lately. School is ridiculously easy and I have a lot of free time to spend with Eddie. I don't have a job but I did start selling clothes on Vinted which is a an awesome app where you can your sell new/used clothes. It's like Buffalo Exchange/Plato except you price your own clothing/accessories and mail them to your buyers. I'm making a lot of profit so it's been pretty fun. I'm also keeping myself busy when I'm not with Eddie by learning to code. Other than that, I've been focusing all my attention into my relationship because I've never been happier. When you fall in love with right person and grow up into a semi-mature adult you begin to realize what's most important in your life. The relationship I share with Eddie is special and I just love being in love. I know, cliche. It's the best feeling in the world to have someone who misses you the second you leave. I may have been in love before but it has never been like this. Life with Eddie just makes sense. I do need to make more time for friends and family..sometimes I feel like I get a little distant from everyone because Eddie is always working so I try and spend as much time with him as possible. Everyone just has their own lives going on, it's hard nowadays to make simple plans..or we're all just too tired at the end of the day. I haven't even gone out in weeks. I just got sick today (because of Eddie) and even though my throat was hurting and I felt weak, I instantly felt better when I saw my boyfriend. As the semester keeps moving on I am excited for it to end because of the upcoming trips I have planned. Eddie and I are going to Austin for five days in November for Fun Fun Fun Fest. I bet it's going to be fun. :p I'm excited for the comedy, bands and just enjoying shows in chilly weather with my love. We are also traveling to Denver, Colorado in December for six days. We are leaving the day after finals. I am so excited for Denver. I've been once when I was young and I can't wait to visit again. Also, it's going to be freezing. I'm hoping I get to see snow. We already have plans to see The Nutcracker ballet. These next months are going to be exciting for me.. I hope they are for you as well. I'm going to continue writing in my blog. I miss it.

Lastly, I'll leave you with this song.. It perfectly states how I've been lately.

Nico - These Days

love

deb

Optimist High

What I Wore... to a wedding shower 

Little Black Dress from Shop 112 - $29.99

Necklace from Shop 112 - $14.99

Jessica Simpson Nude Heels from Dillard's - $49.99

[My Aunt Patty, Mother, Myself and Aunt Sandra]

Today I learned that people are always going to let you down.. no matter what. It's okay though when you have the most wonderful boyfriend, awesome family and friends you can count on. I'm glad to be where I am surrounded by people that actually care for me. I spent the day with my grandmother, mother and aunts at a Wedding Shower for a dear family friend and I appreciated every moment. My family has always been accepting of whatever I want to do and they support and guide me if needed. I'm just trying to appreciate every moment with everyone in my life who is special to me. I've been let down and affected by so many people during my twenty-two years of living and it's time to just forget about all the negativity. I don't want to take anything or anyone for granted. There is nothing wrong with being optimistic right? I've been a pessimist far too long.  

Deb

Date Night with my love...

My friend Sarah had to cancel on me this evening because of summer school. She isn't done until next week so we rescheduled. My boyfriend knows how much I love going to Roosevelt's so he decided we should just make a date night since I no longer had plans. I decided to throw on this cute crop top I purchased at Target for only $17.99 along with my high waisted skinny jeans from F21 that were only $10.99! I finished the outfit with my adorable flat forms I also purchased online at F21 for $27.99. I am so excited for our little date, I love spending time with Eddie and dressing up is always fun. Have a fun and safe evening everyone!

Love Always, Deb 

Let's keep in touch...

[I got bangs again! What do you all think?]

Travel Post Update ...  

I apologize that I am still working on my travel post. I have been using iMovie on my MacBook Pro that is five years old which basically means it works extremely slow. Also, my boyfriend and I also share a charger so I haven't been able to finish editing my videos. It will be soon, I promise! 

[Ferdinand enjoying the beach]

In the meantime, I have been wanting to blog so I figured I might as well post something. This past weekend was spent at South Padre Island with my entire family, including my wonderful boyfriend and a spoiled little English Bulldog (Ferdinand). My family went to the beach because my uncle got married to his fiance this past Saturday. It was a lot of fun seeing my family and spending time with them on the beach. We ate a lot of good food, hung out by the ocean and enjoyed a beautiful wedding ceremony. It was my first time attending a "beach wedding" so I wasn't sure how casual I should dress. I bought a cute little romper from Shop 112 (local boutique) that my friend Sarah suggested I wear for the outdoor wedding. It was the perfect choice because it wasn't going to fly up on me (major plus) and it was comfortable in the awful heat we've been experiencing in South Texas. The wedding was short but it was nice to see my uncle so happy and I was glad to be there and witness it. The rest of the evening was spent with my boyfriend and my cousin Brandon who was visiting from Washington State. We drank a lot! It was tons of fun hanging out with my cousin that I hadn't seen since middle school, he is my only close cousin on dad's side of the family so it was cool to show him around the island and hang out again. We ended the evening drinking in the sand and walking along the water. Anyways, that was pretty much my weekend. I've done quite a bit this week. I've been making sure to run 3 miles everyday so I can lose some weight and it's been pretty tough but I've been keeping up with it. I just had to take Mia and Jade to watch The Guardians of the Galaxy, I saw the midnight showing last Thursday and fell in love with the movie. Chris Pratt has a special place in my heart and the movie was easily my favorite Marvel movie. My sisters loved the movie just as much as I did and I was glad that they enjoyed it. Since I babysit them all day we've also been playing a lot of Rock Band on the PlayStation and I've been cooking for them. We've also been checking out the library and making stops at Target. It's been a lot of fun hanging out with them and I'm really enjoying the last few weeks of Summer. The fun shall continue tonight because Sarah and I are going to Roosevelt's for our usual Thursday hangout which means good beer and conversations. The rest of the weekend I plan on editing, writing and doing a lot of reading. I hope you all have had a fantastic week and that you continue having a fun summer because it is almost over! Thanks for reading, I appreciate it. 

[chris cohen - don't look today]

Before I go, I want to leave you with another chris cohen song. I can't get  any of his songs out of my head. 'Overgrown Path' has become my favorite album this summer. This song is my favorite to sing along to, I hope you like it. 

Love

Deb