Filling the void...

Hi everyone,

I've kind of been dreading this blog post for awhile now but I finally feel like I am in a better place at this time and can write about what I've been avoiding for so long now. Ferdinand died on Thursday, October 29, 2015 around 12:45 a.m. It was the hardeset night of my life because I lost my best friend in the entire world. It's still so hard for me to talk about and hold back tears but I don't ever want to lose any of the wonderful memories that we shared together. Ferdinand was such a special dog, we had such a strong connection and loved each other endlessly. I have been in a lot of pain mourning the loss of my dog. For over a month I couldn't even come back to my house. It was too painful to walk in and not be greeted by a little bulldog who sees you as the light of his world. To be honest, it still is. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him. I had to make the tough decision to put my dog to sleep and I feel that it is something that still haunts me today. I know that I could have kept Ferd around here longer. It might not have been that much longer, but we would've had more time together. Ferdinand had a tumor in his brain, I was left feeling hopeless and cried for over two hours before I could even make the decision. He wasn't even in the right state of mind anymore, he kept having seizure episodes that in the end he couldn't even recognize my voice or see me. This is why I decided to put him out of his pain, he was in so so so much pain and he had absolutely idea what was going on. I was hurting for so long, I still am, and sometimes you just have to talk or write about things. I just miss him so much and wish he was here with me, I've needed you so much Ferdinand. I am going to close the post out with a poem that my Hemingway Professor mentioned in class. He oddly mentioned it on the day I lost Ferdinand when I still decided to attend class and it has stuck with me ever since then. The poem is by Miguel Unamuno and it is titled 'Elegy On The Death of A Dog'. The poem perfectly describes all the feelings I have toward my wonderful Ferdinand The Bulldog. I wish you were here, where are you little guy? 

    ELEGY ON THE DEATH OF A DOG by Miguel Unamuno

The stillness clutched,  with robust hand,
the poor restless dog,
and forever
faithful it lay to rest in its motherly
pious land.
Its gentle eyes
will not fix themselves on mine
with mute sadness;
will not lick my hand
nor in my lap will its slender head
repose.
And now: of what do you dream?
Where has your submissive spirit gone?
Is there no other world
in which you will revive, my poor beast,
and above the heavens
I’ll walk you trotting by my side?

The other world!
Other... other and not this!

A world without the dog,
no soft mountains,
no serene rivers
flanked by the serene trees,
no birds or flowers,
no dogs, or horses,
no oxen that plough...
The other world!
World of the spirits!
But, there,  we will not have
the souls of the living things
around our soul,
the soul of the fields,
the souls of the rocks,
the souls of the trees and the rivers,
of the beasts?
Over there, in the other world,
your soul, poor dog.
Will it not have to repose its spiritual head
in my spiritual lap?
The tongue of your soul, poor friend,
will it not lick the hand of my soul?

The other world... !
Other... and not this!

Oh, you will never be back, my poor dog,
to submerge your eyes
in the eyes that were your mandate;
see, the land rips you up
from he who was your ideal, your god, your glory.
But he, your sad lord,
will he have you in the other life?
The other world...?
The other world is the one of pure spirit!
Of the pure spirit!
Oh, terrible purity,
inanity, empty!
Will I never see you again, gentle friend?
There, will you be a memory,
pure memory?
And this memory:
will it not run before my eyes?
Will it not leap, yielding unto happiness,
pricking up the tail?
Will it not lick the hand of my spirit?
Will it not gaze into my eyes?
This memory:
will you not be you, you yourself,
lord of yourself, living eternal life?
Your dreams: what were they made of?
What of the piety with which you followed loyally
the mandate of my voice?
I was your religion, I was your glory;
you dreamed of God in me;
my eyes were a window for you
from the other world.
If you knew, my dog,
how sad your god is because you have died.
Your god will also die one day!
You died with your eyes
on my eyes fixed,
perhaps searching in these eyes for the mystery
that enshrouded you.
And your pupils, sad
to spy my induring desires,
seemed to ask:

Where are we going my lord?
Where are we going?

Life with man, poor beast,
has given you perhaps a dark longing
that the wolf knows not;
perhaps when you lay the head
in my lap
you vaguely dreamed of being a man
after death!
To be man, poor beast!
Look, my poor friend,
my faithful believer;
to see your eyes that watch me die,
to see your gaze crystallising,
once fluid,
I also ask you: Where are we going?
To be man, poor dog!
Look, your brother
is this other poor dog,
spread eagled by the tomb of your god,
howling at the heavens,
calls on death!
You have died in gentleness,
you with sweetness,
giving yourself up to me in the supreme
submission of life;
but he, he who whimpers
alongside the tomb of his god, of his lord,
neither dying knows.
You, on dying, vaguely sensed
life in my memory,
to not die completely,
but your poor brother
is seen as already dead in life,
is seen to be lost
and howls at the sky begging for death.
Rest in peace, my poor comrade,
rest in peace; sadder
the fortune of your god that is not yours.
The gods weep,
the gods weep when the dog dies
that licked their hands,
that watched their eyes,
and on seeing them thus asked:
Where are we going?

Thanks for reading, it was incredibly painful to write this and to read the bittersweet words that Unamuno wrote. I know that Ferdinand isn't in this world or another world or a heaven. It's hard to realize that and it's hard to write it out. All I have is our memories together, I'll carry them with me until the last day of my life.

Deborah

Graduate applications, quizzes, exams and an endless amount of reading...

 

School hasn't been tough but it has been extremely demanding since I have six classes this semester. If I don't have something due for one class, I have something to work on or read for the other three or four classes. An endless amount of schoolwork is piling up on me and I'm slowly but surely catching up with it all. I just keep telling myself that I have a little over two months left and it gets me through each day. I can't wait to graduate! I just finished submitting my Texas State application and now I just have to finish my St. Edward's application. Yay! Enough about school, that seems to be all I talk about. Last week, I witnessed my grandparents get re-married for their 50th anniversary in Las Vegas and it was a moment that I am so grateful for, I'll cherish it for the rest of my life. I had a wonderful weekend with my family in Vegas, it was a lot of fun and Eddie had a great time as well. I'm glad I was able to be apart of such a special weekend. This week, I hung out with my girlfriends at House Wine in McAllen and it was a lot of fun to reconnect, drink wine and enjoy each others company. This coming week I'll need to catch up with all my schoolwork before I go out of town to Austin and Houston. On Friday, Eddie and I are traveling to Austin to look at apartments, visit friends and just hang out. Then on Saturday, we are going to head towards Houston. In Houston, we are planning to go to the Space Center, visit a brewery, eat yummy food, visit a museum (not sure which one yet) and see Mac DeMarco on Sunday night! I am so excited for the next weekend. Tonight, or this afternoon, I am going to take my little sister's to HESTEC (Hispanic Engineering Science and Technology)  at UTRGV which is a festival for the community and it should be fun and educational. Well, I hope you all have a great rest of the weekend. I'll try and write more often it just gets tough with everything going on at the moment. Anyway, stay lovely and thanks for reading!

love

deb

Mac DeMarco - No Other Heart

I'll see you next Sunday, Mac! :B

Fall 2015

School is back in full-effect. Luckily, I passed my CLEP exam so now I only have to take six classes instead of seven. I only gave myself a week to study so I was extremely excited that I passed my exam. It's going to make my last semester a little easier. I need thirteen books this semester! So far, I love my classes especially my Hemingway course. I've never been so ecstatic to go to class and Eddie and I have the class together so it makes it that much better. 96 more days until graduation! It's finally almost here, I'm so happy! This semester looks like it's going to be pretty wonderful. I already have three trips planned. I'm going to Las Vegas next month with all of my family and Eddie is joining us as well. My grandparents are celebrating their 50th year of marriage by getting re-married by an Elvis Presley impersonator in a little chapel. I have a feeling it's going to be an awesome fun-filled weekend with my family. Then, a couple of weeks later I'm going to Houston for the Mac DeMarco show and to visit museums and local breweries. Super excited to see Mac again! Then, in November it's time for Fun Fun Fun Fest again in Austin and Eddie and I are more than likely going to sign a lease for our new place at that time. Big changes are happening! I couldn't be more ready. Also, Ferd is doing a lot better than the last time I wrote. He's gone back to his old, silly, and cute self. I'm pretty content right now, trying to stay positive and also trying not to procrastinate this semester. Jenn and I have been studying a lot together lately, we also tend to distract each other, lol. I hope you all have been well! I had a long day of studying and reading, I'm going to watch some television with my boyfriend now. :)

love

deb

HOMESHAKE - Doo Dah

The last few days of Summer...

 [Picture of myself before last nights date, beer at the bar while we waited for our table, My sick little Ferd :(, and gifts from Eddie for our two year anniversary]

Hello readers, 

 It has definitely been awhile since I last wrote a blog post, I got pretty busy with school in Summer II but I finally finished on Thursday at 11 p.m. I've had a few days of being able to relax which is always wonderful and I don't start up again until August 31st for my last semester. Anyways, I hope you all have had a nice summer, it's pretty much almost over. I finally got to hang out with my best friend Jenn on Friday, she is back from spending the entire summer in Paris. It was really awesome and fun to hang out with her because the last time we hung out was in February. It felt nice to reunite with Jenn, we've always had a special friendship that I appreciate and I'm glad we always make time to hang out and talk. Then, on Saturday, Eddie and I went on a date to SALT - New American Table and celebrated two years together. It was a lovely date and the restaurant had amazing service, delicious food and a great ambiance. After dinner, we got a couple of beers at Roosevelt's at 7 and then headed home. It was really a wonderful and much needed evening after such an exhausting week of finals. Today, I'm just hanging out and resting at home because at 6:00 a.m. I am going to drive to San Antonio to take Ferdinand to see a Neurologist Specialist. I'm not exactly sure what to expect, I have been a nervous wreck since my Vet suggested I take Ferd to see a Neurologist. I just really hope it's not something too serious. Thankfully, Eddie is going with me to help me out. Then, we are going to spend a couple of days in Austin with Ferdinand. It should be a fun little trip, minus the visit to the Neurologist of course. I can't wait to find out what is officially wrong with Ferd but I'm also scared and nervous at the same time. I just want him to get better. Well, hopefully the news won't be so bad and Eddie, Ferd and I can enjoy a couple of days in Austin. I'll keep you all updated, keep your fingers crossed! In the meantime, I'm trying to keep my mind occupied by applying for Graduate school, I officially started on my applications and admissions essay. I seriously can't wait for the semester to be over with. The way things are looking I will more than likely be moving to Austin on December 28th, which is in four months! So crazy, I'll only be in the Rio Grande Valley for just a few more months. I really want to take advantage of my last months here and make sure I spend time with my friends and family because I know I won't come back as often. Well, thanks for reading everyone! I appreciate it. 

Love

Deb

The Beatles - In My Life

For Ferd...

A day of leisure...

I finished all my finals yesterday afternoon! I felt immediately relieved after and got to hang out with my boyfriend the rest of the day. We got dinner and then went to have a celebratory beer at Roosevelt's.  I did really well in my classes and I had a full day off from school today. I finally got to start my book 'Sick In The Head' by Judd Apatow that I purchased with a gift card from my friend Sarah (thanks girl!) and it's the perfect book for a comedy lover like myself. I also got a day to hang out with my little sisters. I took them to Starbucks, Forever 21 to go shopping and then we saw 'Minions' at the movie theatre. It was quite a fun day and now I'm currently watching 'The Office' with Eddie. Summer II starts tomorrow but I only have class twice a week, let's hope this semester isn't too challenging. I'll talk to you all later! Thanks for reading, I appreciate it so much.

love

deb

Foxygen - Oh yeah 

A little optimism goes a long way...

When things get a little crazy you tend to get overwhelmed. At least I do when I feel like I have no sense of control over what is going on. I feel like a new person today. I got a lot of rest and I decided to be much more optimistic which led to having a pretty good day. I didn't do much, just went to class, had a nice nap, watched a film for my Literature and Film Adaptation class and then did some reading. I also listened to my online lecture and had lots of caffeine, which is pretty much essential at this point. I feel 100% better than yesterday because I don't feel completely behind in my online classes, trust me, it's extremely easy to blow it off. I'm slowly but surely catching up. It's going to be a busy week/weekend until Monday but hey, I can't complain. I'm getting three classes out of the way and I'm getting closer to having a degree. Sometimes you just need a good amount of sleep and a little optimism to get yourself through the day. I figured I can get back on a good workout routine and better eating habits next week because Summer II I will only have class on Monday and Wednesday. Maybe I'll actually get to enjoy summer and hang out with my friends and family more often. It's been a pretty productive day, so now it's time to hangout with my boyfriend and our friends. Alright, well I hope you all are doing lovely. I'm going to try and stay positive as much as possible. The semester is almost over, yay!

Kisses - Midnight Lover

This duo always makes me want to dance.. :)

A Moody Mundane Monday...

Finals are almost here and of course I feel extremely stressed out with an overwhelming amount of work from all three classes. It seems like every day I am having to study for an exam, write an essay or do an insane amount of reading. I'm to the point where I literally feel sick almost every day from the lack of sleep and stress I've been dealing with. It also sucks that I have no time to work out. I feel fat, ugly and stressed. Probably the three worst things for me as a twenty-three year old girl to feel. Seriously looking forward to next Monday at 5:00 p.m. when I am officially done. I only get one day off before Summer II but I am so looking forward to a day of leisure. Wish me luck readers, I need it! I hope your summer is far better than mine currently is. 

Cass McCombs - County Line

this is a nice song...

Back to reality...

Hi readers!

I hope you all have been lovely. I missed writing in my blog while on vacation but I definitely needed a break from everything. I had the most incredible vacation in New York City with Eddie. It was extremely hard to leave the city because I fell in love with it all over again. I felt like that is where I belong and need to be. The city is filled with art, creativity, music, comedy and it was hard to come back to the dull and flat land of the Rio Grande Valley. Oh well, I'm back here now and summer school has started, it's pretty intense so far. I've been constantly busy because I'm taking three classes per summer session but it will be worth when I am graduating in December and finally moving away from the valley. I'm moving to Austin or the suburbs of Austin in late December or early January. It's very exciting to be moving away again. I will be attending graduate school in the area but I'm not quite sure if I want to take off a semester before I start. I guess we'll see how burnt out I am by graduation. Well, that was a quick recap of what I'm currently doing. Now, let's talk about my wonderful vacation and how I hope to move to the city after grad school.

New York City

My vacation was beyond what I envisioned. I had a wonderful time. There is so much going on in the city, I don't think you could ever find yourself bored. Eddie and I thought seven days would be enough time but we were wrong. We didn't get to do a lot of things on our list that we had planned but we still had a blast. This just means that we have to back very soon! I'd be lying if I said I couldn't see myself living in NYC in a couple of years. It would be a smart career choice for me. Texas doesn't really offer any opportunities for my future career goals and dreams. If I do end up in the city in a few years that would be incredible and it would be a big step toward achieving my dreams. Lets hope it happens! As of right now, I can only dream and reflect upon my experiences of being back in the city that never seems to sleep.

The Comedy Cellar

The Comedy Cellar is the best stand up club in the city. I've always had a love for the art of comedy and it has been growing lately so Eddie and I made two reservations at the club. After years of watching 'Louie' I finally got to see what the cellar actually looks like and experience it as an audience member. I highly suggest making reservations because it is quite simple. You just go to their website and pick a time and date and pick how many people are in your party. Upon check-in you simply state your name and you get a seating card. When you enter the famous cellar you see pictures of comedians on the surrounding walls in the hallway. They are very old pictures, so it was pretty funny to see some of my favorite comedians when they were young. When I finally entered the main room I noticed how tiny the cellar actually is. Any seat is a good seat. The first time we went we sat on the side of the stage and the second we sat directly in front of the comedians. I had the best time here! They have a wonderful staff that truly appreciates comedy and you never who is going to stop by and want to do a quick set. I was hoping Louis C.K. would stop by, but he didn't. Both nights were absolutely hilarious though. I saw about six comedians each night and I was laughing non-stop. If I ever lived in New York City I could see myself spending so much time here. There is a lot of talent and it's just the greatest experience. 

Museum of Modern Art (MoMA)

I'm in love with this museum. My favorite type of artwork is modern and abstract and the MoMA is filled with it. You do need at least five or six hours to see everything in the museum. There is just so much and you don't want to miss out on any exhibit that they have. They have a great collection of Pablo Picasso, Andy Warhol and Claude Monet. I stood in awe just admiring these artist's famous works. It was truly a remarkable experience. They even had Vincent van Gogh paintings! I saw the ever so famous 'Starry Night'.  They only had a few Vincent van Gogh painting and they were absolutely stunning. I also saw artwork from Salvador Dali who is probably one of my favorite painters. He is a surrealist painter and his artwork is odd but you can't seem to look away. It was great to see it up close and admire his bizarre style. 

New York City Public Library

This has to be the most beautiful library I've ever seen. Every room you step in has stunning architecture, marble floors and art. I can only imagine the amount of time I would spend in that library if I ever moved to New York City. I don't even think we saw half of it in the time we spent at the library. It was nice just to sit and admire everything the library had to offer. They even had a cute little gift shop which I absolutely loved. 

Brooklyn Art Museum

The Brooklyn Art Museum is a must see if you are in the area. The building is located right next to Prospect Park so we took a stroll through there when we left which was nice. The museum was pretty great because it goes by donations so you can pay as little or as much as you'd like. I went with the suggested student pricing which was $10. The museum was quite large and had so many exhibits we didn't even get to see all of them. It was nice and a I would definitely go back and spend more time visiting all the exhibits.

The Book of Mormon

If you are in New York City or have the chance to see 'The Book of Mormon' on tour I highly suggest you go. It was my first "broadway experience" and Eddie and I had such a fun time. Before the show, we grabbed a drink at a nearby bar and then walked over to the Eugene O' Neil theatre. I won't say much about the play other than that I was literally crying from laughing so hard. Matt Stone and Trey Parker truly deserve all the praise they have received. It's a hysterical, fun and wonderful show to attend. 

The Nightly Show

I have seen every episode of 'The Nightly Show' since it started this year so I had to be a part of the studio audience. Tickets were free, I just had to request them in advance online. It was a cool experience and Larry Wilmore actually came out and spoke with the audience before the show started. It was awesome to see him in action, he is truly a remarkable talent and I'm glad he has his own show. Also, Ilana Glazer and Abbi Jacobson from 'Broad City' were on that night. I was super excited because we saw them as they were entering the building but I was too shy to ask for a picture or say hi, lol (regretting that now). I would love to be a part of the studio audience again.

Brooklyn Brewery

I made it to my favorite brewery guys! Eddie and I drank A LOT because it was the night before his birthday. We had a great time though and got to try a lot of new Brooklyn beers we had never heard of or tried before. It was free to get in and then you had to purchase beer bucks to get the beer. It was only $20 for 5 tokens and each beer was 1 token or 2 tokens for the stronger beers. We ended up getting about 10 tokens because we love IPAs and most of those beers were 2 tokens. Great time, nice people and awesome beer! 

Metropolitan Museum of Art (MET)

If you ever plan on visiting the MET you are going to need a full week here to see the entire art museum. It is HUUUUUUUUUUUUGE, I am not even exaggerating. It seemed as if it there were a never ending amount of exhibits. It was probably the greatest museum I've ever visited and I've been to all of the Smithsonian museums in D.C. Maybe it's because I love art, but this is truly a special place in New York. This is a museum I would get a membership to if I move in the future. I could see myself spending hours in there just writing and admiring the beauty of the art and the building itself. 

Austin

Then, after our long and much needed vacation in New York we ended up back in Austin because we won free tickets to see a taping of Courtney Barnett at ACL Live. You guys don't even know how excited I was. She has been one of my favorite artist ever since her EP came out and I had so much fun jumping around and singing all the lyrics to her song. I can't wait for Eddie and I to move to Austin, we are going to have such a fun life together there. I seriously can't wait to move!

Well thanks for reading guys, this post took me almost two weeks because I've been bombarded with schoolwork. It sucks, but like I said it will be all worth it when I am done. I just have to keep telling myself that. I hope you all are having a great summer. I'll just be in school and studying so hopefully it just goes by quickly. I'm not a big fan of heat or the summer so I can't wait for the fall and cooler weather. Anyway, thanks again for reading my long post. I hope you enjoyed it. Have a good rest of the week lovely readers.

A little jizz jazz from Mac.

Another One - Mac DeMarco

P.S. Marc Maron posted his interview with President Barack Obama on his podcast, WTF. It's a great conversation. I highly suggest listening to it, the President is quite a remarkable person and you get great insight on the amount of pressures that he deals with on a day to day basis. You also feel a sense of hope and optimism as he speaks, I truly enjoyed it and I know you will too. 

NYC

Hello readers! 

I hope you all are lovely. I will be leaving to Austin today since I am flying out to New York City tomorrow morning with my boyfriend. I hope that the weather doesn't get as ugly as it has been in the Austin area. Wish me luck! We will be staying in Manhattan instead of Brooklyn but we are still planning on spending a couple of days in the Brooklyn area. I'm extremely excited because we have something planned almost every night. We are going to comedy shows, A Broadway show (The Book of Mormon), improv shows and two live-taping's. I can't wait to tell you all about my trip. Have a great week! Also, Happy Early Birthday to my wonderful and sweet boyfriend. He turns 24 on May 31st. Smell ya later! 

love 

deb

Frank Sinatra - New York, New York 

Countdown to summer vacation...

Hello everyone!

I hope you all have had a wonderful week. I finished my last week of school but I still have two projects due and one final due next week, I will be officially done on Thursday. I couldn't be anymore excited for my mini summer vacation. I am looking forward to relaxing and watching King of The Hill. This week was pretty great considering I only had to go to school until Wednesday. I had two finals to worry about but they were really easy. I also decided to cut my hair and have a new look for summer. It gets extremely hot here in the RGV so cutting five to six inches off my hair was a must. It feels nice and healthy now, I love it. I spent yesterday running around town finding gifts for my mom for Mother's Day and then I surprised her when she got home with fresh roses in a cute vase, a bottle of moscato (her favorite wine), mini cheesecake and a giant card thanking her for everything that she does. It was nice to surprise her and she really appreciated it. Then, last night I spent the evening with my family at a BBQ for my cousin Ashley's birthday. It was a fun evening filled with food and good laughs and the family time I always cherish. Now that summer is approaching I'm hoping to hang out with my girlfriends, it's been over a month since we've hung out because we were all busy.. but I definitely need some friend time in my life. I hope we are able to catch up soon. Until then, I'm looking forward to my New York trip with Eddie. Just 17 more days! I'm super excited! I can't believe it's almost time, I need to start planning an itinerary and buy some new luggage. Well, thank you all for reading. I'm going to start getting ready for a wedding in a bit for my second cousin. Have a lovely day! 

Love, 

Deb

Rhye - Hunger

A relaxing/painful weekend...

[It's hard for me to smile because my mouth is sore. Also, I wore a very comfy outfit today.]

Ouch! Going to the Dentist is always an awful experience for me. I had all four wisdom teeth extracted yesterday and I was in so much pain all evening. I was also numb for about twelve hours! I'm glad it's all over now but I still have to go back and remove the stitches later in the week. I'm also still dealing with soreness and pain because the medicine they prescribed me isn't strong at all. Oh well, I'm trying to power through it. I just wish I could eat! I've only been able to eat liquids and soft foods. I do get to eat a lot of ice cream though and that makes me happy. Luckily, I have a sweet and caring boyfriend to take care of me all weekend. He's been so nice and helpful while my family is out of town. Today, while Eddie went to work out I was bored of being in the house all day yesterday and today so I took a little shopping trip to Forever 21 and got some cute shoes and two dresses. I'm glad I got to get out for a bit. After that I just came back home and I've been studying and doing homework since then. I already finished with one class and have two exams this coming week. The semester is almost over guys! I hope you've had a great weekend.

P.S. Django Django has a new album coming out on May 4th! I'm excited and I hope it's as great or greater than their self-titled album.

love

deb

Here is a song off the new album!

Django Django - Shake and Tremble

A fun-filled weekend...

This weekend I visited Austin for Moontower Comedy Festival. It was a lot of fun and much needed time away from school. It was weird to be back in Austin, everyone has been keeping it weird I suppose. (lame joke) Anyways, it's crazy to see how much the city has grown since I haven't been around. I'm not sure how it's going to be when I move in December or January. I'm not sure I'm quite ready for all the traffic I have to deal with and the amount of people in such a small city. Anyway, back to my weekend..since I had an exam on Friday I couldn't leave until I finished with my exam and then Eddie and I took off to Austin. We left Edinburg around 1:00 p.m. and arrived in Austin just before 6:00 p.m. and somehow managed to miss all the traffic which is rare, especially when you are going through San Antonio. As soon as we got to Austin we quickly checked into our private room on the east side. Then we headed downtown to Stateside for Dr. Katz Live. The show was great and then Eddie and I decided to go have long island iced coffees at Halcyon before our next show at midnight. The long islands gave us some much needed energy after the long drive and we headed to The Paramount for T.J. Miller and Pete Holmes. While we were waiting in line we saw Marc Maron and Eddie got to say hi to him and shake his hand. I just kind of froze and stared at him because I am constantly listening to his podcast WTF and it was cool to see him as a real person, I was a little starstruck lol. The show went great, I love T.J. Miller I think he's hilarious and I also love him Silicon Valley. I also got to see Pete Holmes for the second time who has only gotten funnier since I saw him film his Comedy Central Presents a couple of years ago. After the show we went home for some much needed sleep. The next day we slept in until around 11:00 a.m., got ready and then picked up some food before we started the day. We hung out with Eddie's best friend Pete and our friend Jason stopped by and we discussed comedy, new films and television. It was a lot of fun and then we Eddie and I went to hang out with my friend Marissa for a bit. She was house sitting at this awesome house just west of sixth street and we just watched TV, talked and had some alcoholic beverages. After our hang out we went to check out Waterloo, Whole Foods and then had to attend another stand up show in the evening. We saw Todd Barry at Stateside and he was hilarious of course. The next day, we woke up early to go watch Ex Machina with Oscar Isaac at The Alamo Drafthouse. The movie was intense, different and based on A.I. I thought it was really great and I pretty much love any movie with Oscar Isaac because he is such a wonderful actor. Before we left Austin we grabbed coffee from Thunderbird and then hung out with Eddie's best friend Pete again and his girlfriend Erika. Then it was time for the six-hour drive home because of an accident on the way back home that caused traffic to not move for over an hour. It was the worst drive I've ever had to do. It was hard to re-adjust to school life as soon as I got back. I had to complete Spanish homework, work on a Power Point presentation and write five essays that are due tomorrow. I keep telling myself just a few more days of school left and I can do it. I can't wait for school to be over with, the last class day is Wednesday and can't come soon enough. Stay strong guys, the semester is almost over! 

P.S. Are you all ready for The Avengers: Age of Ultron? I know I am! I'll be at the theater this Thursday for a showing. I can hardly wait! 

love

deb

Lovely Day - Alt-J

I've been listening to this song a lot lately, it's beautiful and makes me feel great..

Is it Summer yet?!?

[My story! Pick it up if you go to UTPA, Moontower Tickets, Gallery Photo, Missing Roosevelt's beer and food, homemade frappes I made with Mia and Jade]

Hello everybody!
Last time I posted I was a little moody. I think it's easy to tell when I'm frustrated with how things are going. I'm doing much better now. School and writing for the newspaper can just get frustrating at times and I get upset.I tend to have little mental breakdowns every now and then. I also haven't been doing much or going out so you can imagine how much I feel the need just to have fun and escape for a bit. I've literally just been so busy that I haven't been able to enjoy spending time with my boyfriend or my friends. This week is actually going to be a pretty easy week and I am so happy about that. I did get printed in The Pan American last week and that was pretty cool. I also just finished writing a 24 page research paper yesterday. I've been writing for school a lot and it sucks, but I'm an English major and a reporter so I don't have a choice. This week I just need to focus on getting my spreads done on InDesign for the UTPA Gallery Literary & Arts Magazine. We are going to print next week! Gallery is probably my favorite class, my professor is letting us design the magazine however we like and as a class we picked all the poetry, essays, prose and art for the magazine. If you are a UTPA student I highly suggest you pick it up when it's available. We took pictures today for the magazine and that was fun. Anyways, you guys have no idea how excited I am for this upcoming weekend. I am going to Austin for Moontower Comedy Festival with Eddie on Friday! I have tickets for Dr. Katz and Marc Maron will be doing an appearance, also going to T.J. Miller, Pete Holmes and Todd Barry. We are going to leave Friday as soon as I finish with my exam. Then it's time to enjoy a fun weekend of comedy, cold drinks and yummy food. I'm so glad that Eddie and I decided to go and that it's only a few days away. I am not looking forward to next weekend at all. I am getting four wisdom teeth extracted on a Friday which means I'll probably just be cooped up at home in pain all weekend. Finally the semester is coming to an end and we only have a couple of weeks. I am so ready for the semester to be over and I only have one final to worry about. I hope you all are doing well and have a great week/weekend! I know I will! :)

P.S. Are you guys watching Daredevil on Netflix? It's AMAZING!

love, deb

I just can't get enough of Courtney Barnett. . .

My Best Friend

I don't have many pictures to post because I haven't been taking many lately. I'd rather just enjoy the moment without having to be on my phone every second of every day. I did snap a few pictures of my dog the other day. We've been spending a lot of time together when I'm not in school. It's crunch time, the spring semester is about to end. I'm thankful for Ferd, I love my dog so much and I appreciate him always being by my side. At times when you're stressed out and frustrated all you really need is your best friend. 

That's all for now, hope you all are doing well. 

P.S. listen to Courtney Barnett's new album 'Sometimes I Sit And Think, And Sometimes I Just Sit' it's a wonderful album that shows her true artistry. 

See ya

The morbid thoughts of an occasional drinker...

It's quite odd the feelings and emotions you go through when you are drinking. It brings about a person in which you truly not are. The being within you, the non being. The someone you aspire or don't aspire to be. I don't drink that often or maybe I do. In the eyes of my parents I may drink too often. Sometimes, I can drink too much. I don't see it as a problem. I think it's normal, it's a part of my social life. I enjoy drinking a beer and having intellectual conversations. When the drops of alcohols trickle down my throat the thoughts of news, films, politics, music and podcasts come to fruition. In a way, drinking brings out a side of you that may be unfamiliar. A side in which, you can truly be yourself. I'm quite shy but if I've had a few beers try keeping me quiet. It varies though, alcohol is a weird drug. A dangerous drug that can easily be life threatening. It's odd how strongly it's encouraged to drink. Drinking can lead to alcoholism and even your own death. That's something you don't often hear when you are at a restaurant or a bar. I recently visited a liquor store to purchase a four pack of craft beer and it had been two years since I set foot into a liquor store. I thought about the guy standing in line behind me. Does he come here often? Is he attending a party this evening, or is he drinking alone? A thought that left my mind to wonder. It's so normal and okay to drink. You're an American, dammit. You are free to do what you want. Haha, I hope you can sense my sarcasm. I was listening to Marc Maron's podcast with Robin Williams last night and it was probably the saddest interview I've ever heard. The true struggle of an unhappy man speaking about alcohol and cocaine as if it was okay. They even talked about suicide. It deeply saddened me. Such a successful and inspiring actor dealing with alcoholism and drug addiction. It made me wonder if you can ever truly be happy and satisfied with life... 

Deb 

It's March Already?!

Hi readers,

Before I start off this blog post I want to say... Thank You! I'm over 3,000 views now! How awesome is that? I know I don't update as often as I should but I am so thankful for you all reading my post. It means a lot to me that someone is actually taking time out of their day to read a blog post I wrote. You all are awesome, thanks again!

Now, let's recap…as you all know I celebrated Valentine's Day on February 13th with my boyfriend and it was a great day. I bought a cute dress from Target, curled my hair and got the perfect valentine's gift for my love. We spent the entire day together. We had lunch at Cheddar's which meant yummy food and good mixed drinks. After that, we exchanged gifts (Eddie knows me too well), napped and just hung out the rest of the day. I think the most important part of Valentine's Day is just being with the person you love and letting them know how much they mean to you. 

[Ugh, for some reason all these photos are blurry. I'm sorry. :(]

I also recently celebrated my 23rd Birthday. Yes, I am getting old! Eddie got me a GoPro and I love it. I've been wanting an action cam for awhile now. I can't wait to share all my videos with you all. It was a fun birthday and I felt lots of love from my family, friends and boyfriend. I spent my actual birthday with Eddie at South Padre Island. We planned a trip to the beach and book a hotel room at The Pearl -South Padre. The hotel was nice, cheap and even had a balcony with a beautiful view of the ocean. We started off the day at the Padre Island Brewery with burgers and beers. Unfortunately, I was sick so I was only able to drink one beer. I still managed to have fun even though I couldn't breathe, had chills and a fever. After lunch, we hung out in the room. Watched the waves from the balcony and had dinner at Blackbeard's. It was the perfect day...minus being sick. 

On Saturday, we drove back from the beach and relaxed a bit before we went out with friends in the evening. It was recently my best friend Sarah's birthday also so we all got together with our friend B'yanka and her boyfriend Gabe to drink, eat and celebrate turning twenty-three. First, we went to happy hour at 'The Quarter' and then we went to our usual spot 'Roosevelt's at 7.' The evening was filled with laughs and good conversations. I really missed hanging out with my friends. It's funny how we all are so busy with our own lives but when we get together it's like we've never been apart. That's how you know you're true friends...and I'm very thankful for having them in my life. 

Then, on Sunday I spent the day in bed. I was still sick and exhausted from such an eventful weekend. I got a lot of rest and then went shopping at a local boutique 'Shop 112' where Sarah works and then I stopped at 'Barnes & Noble' to look at Wes Anderson books that I want but don't have the money for. :'( (They are like $40 each). I will eventually buy them, Wes is one of my favorite film directors and I just find him fascinating.

This week has been a little slow. I've just been going to school and doing homework and whatnot. But, guess what?! On Monday, I purchased a flight to New York City! I will be going with Eddie on May 27 - June 2 and we will be staying in Brooklyn. Not many of you may know this but I am in love with Brooklyn. My favorite beer and coffee is from Brooklyn and I've only briefly visited a few years ago. I'm excited to finally stay for a week. I feel like Brooklyn is a place where I can see myself living for a few years. (Fingers crossed) So far, I made reservations at 'The Comedy Cellar' which is an iconic stand-up comedy room where famous comics have performed such as Louis C.K., Todd Barry, Ray Romano, Dave Chappelle, Chris Rock, etc. Just to be in a room where all those famous comics once stood on stage is going to be an amazing experience for me. I've loved and admired comedians for years and I can't wait to see stand-up at the famous comedy room in New York City. I also got tickets for the new Comedy Central show 'The Nightly Show' hosted by the extremely funny and witty, Larry Wilmore. Right now, I am still working on getting some tickets to 'The Daily Show' hosted by Jon Steward but since he recently announced that he is leaving every show has been sold out weeks in advance. (Wish me luck on scoring those free tickets!) I seriously can't wait for this trip. We will also plan to celebrate Eddie's 24th birthday at Brooklyn Brewery. We might plan a day trip via Bolt Bus to D.C., Philly, or Boston. Plus, of course visiting all of the museum and hopefully catching an Off-Broadway play I'm looking forward too, 'Fun Home' based on a graphic memoir I read a couple of years ago by Alison Bechdel. My best friend Alyssa that lives in Philly also plans on joining us in the city. We have so many plans already and it's barely March. Now, I just have to patiently wait eighty-three days. :( It sounds like a lot but these months have been flying by. 

Tomorrow, I have my first story to cover for 'The Pan American' over Student Film Projects at UTPA. I am excited to cover a story that I am interested in, I love film (It would have been my minor but since I want to graduate ASAP, I stuck with boring Anthropology). I'm a little nervous because I have to interview people I’ve never met and I tend to be shy but as a reporter you are forced to step out of your shell. It's also a little nerve-wrecking because the event ends at 8:00 p.m. and my editor wants the story e-mailed and ready for editing by midnight. Wish me luck guys! 

Thank you all for reading! I appreciate it.
Lastly, I'll leave you with a short video I made from my Birthday Weekend with my new GoPro. I hope you enjoy it! :p

Love,

Deb

Busy Bee...

Hi readers! Guess what? I'm going to put my writing skills to some use finally. I'm officially a new writer for my university newspaper, The Pan American. They were glad to accept me and I start reporter training soon. I've never done reporting before and I am ecstatic and ready to learn. This opportunity gives me the chance to dabble into reporting and write, of course. Also, I'll eventually start getting paid to write for school. How cool is that?! Now that I am almost twenty-three it's important for me to start learning new skills, volunteer and begin internships. I'm happy to say that I'll be doing all of them and I'll be extremely busy. I know it will be worth it to gain experience and to hopefully land a job as soon as I graduate. I still plan on attending graduate school but for that I am going to need money which means getting a higher paying job after graduating is much needed. I'm finally putting myself out there. I feel like I'm breaking out of my shell and doing things I'm not normally comfortable doing (aka talking to people, lol). My ultimate goal in my future career is to keep on writing and hopefully write for a magazine or newspaper. I know I can't do that where I currently live. I'm ready to venture out in the world and find my place. I can't wait to graduate. Here's to good things happening. (raises plastic cup filled with nothing) I hope you all are doing lovely! 

Love

Deb

Hello!

Hi all!

I hope you've been lovely. I miss writing in my blog, I always say it. I've just been trying to stay away from social media and sharing too much but then I figured it's not like I have many readers. I shouldn't care and I should just write what I feel whenever I want. So, I'm going to do that. 

In December, I went to Denver, Colorado with Eddie. We had a great time. I did get altitude sickness which made me nauseated and sleepy my entire vacation. I still managed to enjoy myself because the city was pretty spectacular. We had great food, enjoyed museums (my favorite was the art museum), watched a film, visited book stores and record stores, went on a microbrew tour (super fun) and had another good airbnb experience. 

After we returned back to Edinburg, it was time for the holidays. The holidays are less exciting the older you get. No one puts up lights anymore and everyone has fake trees. I still had fun with my family and I love buying gifts for my family, friends and boyfriend. 

Then, In January I started my spring semester of school at UTPA. I am finally on track to graduate in December 2015. I'm super excited about that but also nervous about applying to graduate school. I know that I can't stay in Edinburg for my masters. I don't think I could handle it (I've been here long enough), I'm also getting too old to live at home. I also have to start studying for my GRE and I'm unsure about how many months I should study and when to take it. Oh well, I'll figure it out. This semester I'm taking eighteen hours and I have four upper level English courses, Spanish and Formal Logic. I'm managing my time well, I have reading and homework pretty much every day so it's hard to find time outside of school. I'm tired all the time now.  

Besides that, everything is going well. I can't believe it is already February. Valentine's Day is coming up and Eddie and I are planning on going out to eat the day before during the afternoon. I can't stand crowds and waiting so going out on the day before sounds like a much better plan. February is also my birthday month. I'm not that excited to turn twenty-three. I feel so old, I guess I look young so that's a good thing.

Lately, I've been enjoying Parks and Recreation. The show is back for its seventh and final season. I already cried in the past few episodes that aired I don't think I can handle the finale. I'm sure I'll be crying the entire last episode, lol. I've also gotten into Marc Maron's podcast 'WTF' and I also listened to 'Serial' from This American Life. If you like hearing from your comedians and celebrities and how they started their career then listen to WTF. If you like hearing about serial killers and want to feel involved in a case then listen to Serial. They are both really interesting. Anyways, I'm rambling now here is a few of my favorites I can't get enough of lately. 

Thanks for reading!

Love, Deb.